Yesterday voting started for the winter addition of the Shimmer Awards. Finding Bella has been nominated for The Fragile Award (Best All Human). There are lots of great stories nominated not only in this category, but all the others as well.
If you'd like to vote, go to http://shimmerawards.webs.com/vote.htm.
Voting takes place from now until December 30, 2009.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
FB - Chapter 15 Teaser
Then she sighed. “You can talk to me you know. I know things are strange for you right now, but you can trust me, and you can trust Edward.”
When she said Edward’s name, my entire body reacted with a weird mixture of fear and something else I really couldn’t name. “I…”
I didn’t know what to say. There was no way I could tell her what I was feeling and why. She knew my master. Worked for him even. No. I couldn’t share those things with her. I trusted her, but I didn’t trust her, if that made sense. And there I was again in the place I seemed to constantly live in, confusion.
Finally, I heard her sigh on the other end. “Okay. I won’t push. Edward would have my head if I did. But will you promise you’ll call me if you want to talk?”
I heard the pleading in her voice and couldn’t say no. “Yes.”
“Good,” she paused. “Okay, well I’d better get back to work. I’ll see you later, Isabella.”
Alice didn’t wait for me to say goodbye, she just ended the call. I was really glad she hadn’t pushed me. I didn’t think I could say no to her indefinitely, but I didn’t want to have to either lie to her or anger Master.
When she said Edward’s name, my entire body reacted with a weird mixture of fear and something else I really couldn’t name. “I…”
I didn’t know what to say. There was no way I could tell her what I was feeling and why. She knew my master. Worked for him even. No. I couldn’t share those things with her. I trusted her, but I didn’t trust her, if that made sense. And there I was again in the place I seemed to constantly live in, confusion.
Finally, I heard her sigh on the other end. “Okay. I won’t push. Edward would have my head if I did. But will you promise you’ll call me if you want to talk?”
I heard the pleading in her voice and couldn’t say no. “Yes.”
“Good,” she paused. “Okay, well I’d better get back to work. I’ll see you later, Isabella.”
Alice didn’t wait for me to say goodbye, she just ended the call. I was really glad she hadn’t pushed me. I didn’t think I could say no to her indefinitely, but I didn’t want to have to either lie to her or anger Master.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
FB - Chapter 14 Teaser
The doors opened, and we walked down a short hallway until we reached a door with two decorative steps in front. I knocked, and in less than a minute the door was opened revealing a bouncing Alice.
Alice was no longer in work clothes but had donned a little black skirt and frilly tank top. She managed to pull off the dressy casual look well, even with her current bare feet.
Before I knew what was happening, she had pulled us both inside with a squeal and enveloped the woman at my side in a hug. Isabella’s reaction was delayed for no more than two seconds before she hugged Alice back, and I released a deep sigh, relaxing just a little more. Maybe tonight would be okay.
We were ushered farther into the house and found Jasper in the kitchen moving expertly as he jumped from one dish to the other. He looked up. “Hey Edward,” he smiled at me and then shifted his attention to the woman Alice had her arm wrapped around. “And this must be Isabella.” Jasper wiped his hands on the towel he had tucked at his waist and came around the island. Extending his hand, he said, “It’s good to finally meet you.”
Alice was no longer in work clothes but had donned a little black skirt and frilly tank top. She managed to pull off the dressy casual look well, even with her current bare feet.
Before I knew what was happening, she had pulled us both inside with a squeal and enveloped the woman at my side in a hug. Isabella’s reaction was delayed for no more than two seconds before she hugged Alice back, and I released a deep sigh, relaxing just a little more. Maybe tonight would be okay.
We were ushered farther into the house and found Jasper in the kitchen moving expertly as he jumped from one dish to the other. He looked up. “Hey Edward,” he smiled at me and then shifted his attention to the woman Alice had her arm wrapped around. “And this must be Isabella.” Jasper wiped his hands on the towel he had tucked at his waist and came around the island. Extending his hand, he said, “It’s good to finally meet you.”
Monday, December 14, 2009
Perspective Outtakes
Here is the chance for you to tell me what you want.
For those of you who have been reading Perspective you know that it is quickly coming to an end. (Okay well not so quickly, but you get my meaning.) There are only 3 chapters left!
At the end of the Jasper/Alice outtake I posted last week, I asked what other's you'd like to see from the story. So far the feedback as been sparse. I've had a couple requests for chapter 24 from Bella's POV and then I got another saying anything from Alice/Jasper again.
There has got to be more opinions out there. Thirty nine chapters are posted!
So please, PLEASE, tell me what you'd like to see. I'm not picky, you can leave it here, the Twilighted thread, or as a review on the story.
For those of you who have been reading Perspective you know that it is quickly coming to an end. (Okay well not so quickly, but you get my meaning.) There are only 3 chapters left!
At the end of the Jasper/Alice outtake I posted last week, I asked what other's you'd like to see from the story. So far the feedback as been sparse. I've had a couple requests for chapter 24 from Bella's POV and then I got another saying anything from Alice/Jasper again.
There has got to be more opinions out there. Thirty nine chapters are posted!
So please, PLEASE, tell me what you'd like to see. I'm not picky, you can leave it here, the Twilighted thread, or as a review on the story.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
FB - Chapter 13 Teaser
Just then, I saw Esme come through the door. I was hoping she hadn’t heard anything I’d said, but my hopes were dashed when I saw her face. Turning to her, I said in the calmest voice I could manage, “Thank you for dinner, it was delicious as always.” Without saying another word to my uncle, I walked to my car and got in.
Isabella sensed my mood and was incredibly still. I waited until I’d settled my emotions before saying. “You did well today, Isabella. I’m very proud of you.”
“Thank you, Master,” she said, but I noticed her posture had not relaxed in the least.
“What’s on your mind?”
“Did I…” she paused. “Did I do something to upset him?”
At her question, I felt my anger at my uncle come to the surface once again. She did not need this. “No. He was upset with me. You did nothing wrong.”
Saturday, December 5, 2009
FB - Chapter 12 Teaser
I pushed myself out of bed. I did not want to anger him this morning. Last night had been so very nice, and I wanted it again.
I dressed quickly in the tank top and shorts he’d laid out for me and headed up the stairs. Just as he’d said, he was waiting for me.
When I entered the room he was facing away from me, but that soon changed. It seemed as if he could tell I was there because not more than five seconds passed before he turned around. I immediately dropped my eyes.
He walked toward me slowly, deliberately. My body went on alert as he got closer. I had no idea what he was going to do to me here.
My master stopped directly in front of me. “Good morning, Isabella. Did you sleep well?”
“Yes, Master. Thank you.”
His hand came up to lift my chin. I knew by now that he wanted me to look at him. My eyes found his and waited. He didn’t make me wait long. “I’m glad to hear that. I was going to introduce you to my gym this morning, but it seems you’ve already become acquainted.”
I dressed quickly in the tank top and shorts he’d laid out for me and headed up the stairs. Just as he’d said, he was waiting for me.
When I entered the room he was facing away from me, but that soon changed. It seemed as if he could tell I was there because not more than five seconds passed before he turned around. I immediately dropped my eyes.
He walked toward me slowly, deliberately. My body went on alert as he got closer. I had no idea what he was going to do to me here.
My master stopped directly in front of me. “Good morning, Isabella. Did you sleep well?”
“Yes, Master. Thank you.”
His hand came up to lift my chin. I knew by now that he wanted me to look at him. My eyes found his and waited. He didn’t make me wait long. “I’m glad to hear that. I was going to introduce you to my gym this morning, but it seems you’ve already become acquainted.”
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Perspective - Outtake Teaser
Some of you might have wondered what happened after Jasper left Edward in the middle of Chapter 37. Now you don't have to wonder. :)
My arms wrapped around her small frame, and I flipped her over onto her back. Our tongues battled, our lips pulled and sucked trying desperately to get closer, to become one.
Using all my strength, I pressed against her, letting her feel all of me. My little pixie growled, urging me on.
It was all the encouragement I needed to begin ripping away at the thin layers of clothing separating us. I registered the ripping of fabric and then the feel of skin.
My fingers dug roughly into her flesh, bringing her hips up to meet mine. Jeans still covered my lower half, but she quickly took care of that.
Once I was free, I knew I needed to be inside her without delay. And with one strong thrust, I was.
My arms wrapped around her small frame, and I flipped her over onto her back. Our tongues battled, our lips pulled and sucked trying desperately to get closer, to become one.
Using all my strength, I pressed against her, letting her feel all of me. My little pixie growled, urging me on.
It was all the encouragement I needed to begin ripping away at the thin layers of clothing separating us. I registered the ripping of fabric and then the feel of skin.
My fingers dug roughly into her flesh, bringing her hips up to meet mine. Jeans still covered my lower half, but she quickly took care of that.
Once I was free, I knew I needed to be inside her without delay. And with one strong thrust, I was.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
FB - Chapter 11 Teaser
Taking a deep breath, I squared my shoulders and slowly raised my eyes. He hadn’t said a word since I’d lowered them, and I knew he was waiting. As soon as I was looking at him again, he continued, “Everything I do, Isabella, will be with you in mind. I will always do what I think is best.”
I knew what he meant. He would do what was best for him. But I’d liked the first part. The part where he said he would do everything with me in mind. I wasn’t sure what that meant but it was something. And I hoped it meant that he wouldn’t hurt me too badly. I really hoped that.
Then he reached out and placed a hand on my cheek. His thumb rubbed along the bone just below my left eye. “You belong to me, Isabella. You are safe.”
I knew what he meant. He would do what was best for him. But I’d liked the first part. The part where he said he would do everything with me in mind. I wasn’t sure what that meant but it was something. And I hoped it meant that he wouldn’t hurt me too badly. I really hoped that.
Then he reached out and placed a hand on my cheek. His thumb rubbed along the bone just below my left eye. “You belong to me, Isabella. You are safe.”
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
FB - Isabella's Collar
I had this image in my head as to what her collar would look like. What I wanted was a simple circle, nothing fancy. You would be amazed how hard that was to find!
After spending what had to be at least three hours searching the internet, this is what I found. It isn't it exactly, but it's close. Choker Necklace. This necklace does not have an actual claps, and her collar does. Hers is also white gold where as this one is sterling silver.
I'd had some requests for a visual, and I hope this helps.
After spending what had to be at least three hours searching the internet, this is what I found. It isn't it exactly, but it's close. Choker Necklace. This necklace does not have an actual claps, and her collar does. Hers is also white gold where as this one is sterling silver.
I'd had some requests for a visual, and I hope this helps.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
FB - Chapter 10 Teaser
I dusted, cleaned mirrors, and vacuumed the downstairs before heading up to the library. I wasn’t sure I’d have time to take all the books off the shelf and put them back so instead, I just dusted the tops and fronts, wherever I could reach. It wasn’t until I finished that I noticed a small little stairway, only three steps, in the back corner.
Up the steps were two doors. I tried the first, but it was locked. The second opened easily and was filled with gym equipment. This must have been where Master was this morning. I could tell he’d been working out. His breathing was heavier than normal, and he was wearing lose fitting shorts, like the ones he’d given me Thursday morning. I didn’t notice what type of shirt he was wearing other than the color since I’d kept my head down.
The room had a distinct male scent and was clearly well used. I stood there for far too long lost in my thoughts. It looked so normal.
When I was finally able to pull myself back to reality, I got to work using the cleaner to wipe off all the machines. There were mirrors along the back wall so I sprayed them down and made sure there were no streaks.
Finishing, I took a deep breath. The room smelled clean now, but there was still a hint of him here that lingered. It just seemed to fit. I also realized that it almost smelled…good.
Up the steps were two doors. I tried the first, but it was locked. The second opened easily and was filled with gym equipment. This must have been where Master was this morning. I could tell he’d been working out. His breathing was heavier than normal, and he was wearing lose fitting shorts, like the ones he’d given me Thursday morning. I didn’t notice what type of shirt he was wearing other than the color since I’d kept my head down.
The room had a distinct male scent and was clearly well used. I stood there for far too long lost in my thoughts. It looked so normal.
When I was finally able to pull myself back to reality, I got to work using the cleaner to wipe off all the machines. There were mirrors along the back wall so I sprayed them down and made sure there were no streaks.
Finishing, I took a deep breath. The room smelled clean now, but there was still a hint of him here that lingered. It just seemed to fit. I also realized that it almost smelled…good.
Perspective - Chapter 39 Teaser
I couldn’t help the half smile that curved my lips. She was so beautiful with her lips well kissed and her breath coming faster than it normally should all because of me. “No, love,” I assured her. “I just thought maybe my car was not the best place for what we were doing.”
“Oh,” she said with a little surprise in her voice. Then she looked around and blushed. Bella was poised somewhere in between straddling the center console of my Volvo and sitting in my lap. This, was new.
With amazing speed and a little of Bella’s tale tell clumsiness, she found her own seat again. “Sorry,” she mumbled.
I reached out and felt the heat of her blush through my palm as I traced it down her cheek. “No need to apologize. I was rather enjoying myself.”
Bella looked up at me as her teeth encompassed her lower lip. Then she glanced down at my lap. A small growl escaped me, knowing what she was looking for and what she’d find. Her head turned and her lips grazed the cold hand still resting at her face. The feel of teeth lightly scrapping against my marble skin registered, followed by the softness of her tongue.
I stopped breathing. My muscles locked into place as I fought the urges flowing through me at that exact moment, urges that would end in a much more primal way that I wanted for Bella. “You need to go inside,” I said with the air I had left.
And then she smirked at me, opened her door, and said, “Don’t be late.”
I remained unmovable until she crossed the threshold of her home. That woman would be the death of me.
“Oh,” she said with a little surprise in her voice. Then she looked around and blushed. Bella was poised somewhere in between straddling the center console of my Volvo and sitting in my lap. This, was new.
With amazing speed and a little of Bella’s tale tell clumsiness, she found her own seat again. “Sorry,” she mumbled.
I reached out and felt the heat of her blush through my palm as I traced it down her cheek. “No need to apologize. I was rather enjoying myself.”
Bella looked up at me as her teeth encompassed her lower lip. Then she glanced down at my lap. A small growl escaped me, knowing what she was looking for and what she’d find. Her head turned and her lips grazed the cold hand still resting at her face. The feel of teeth lightly scrapping against my marble skin registered, followed by the softness of her tongue.
I stopped breathing. My muscles locked into place as I fought the urges flowing through me at that exact moment, urges that would end in a much more primal way that I wanted for Bella. “You need to go inside,” I said with the air I had left.
And then she smirked at me, opened her door, and said, “Don’t be late.”
I remained unmovable until she crossed the threshold of her home. That woman would be the death of me.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
FB - Collar of Protection
I'd planned to put something up about this before I received a review questioning Edward's decision to collar Isabella. I knew some would have questions about it or just feel that it is too soon.
First, I want to point out that aside from the sexual aspect, they are already living as Dominant and submissive. He is giving her choices, freedoms, yes, but depending on the submissive's needs and wants that could be found in other D/s relationships. The only thing they are lacking is a formal agreement. And as many of you have commented in your reviews, she isn't ready for anything like that at this point.
So why the collar and what will it mean for their relationship? First, nothing major will change with their dynamics. As I've been doing research for this story, I came across a website talking about the meanings associated with D/s collars. After doing a little more research and talking with an actual submissive about it, I really wanted to share what I found out.
While a collar can be anything from a necklace to a bracelet to just about anything else a submissive is able to wear, the main thing is the meaning. It is the meaning both the Dominant and the submissive place on the collar that is important.
So that brings me to the Protection Collar. This collar is given to a submissive that has usually been in an abusive relationship and needs to recover. A Dom will take her under his wing, so to speak. While she wears this collar of protection she is not allowed to be approached by any other Dom's without the consent of the one whose collar she is wearing. The protecting Dom is responsible for seeing that her needs are met whatever they may be. That does include sexual needs, but it doesn't have to. His goal and responsibility is to help prepare her to re-enter the community and find a healthy D/s relationship for her.
If you want to read the full page with descriptions of all the different types of collars, here is the link http://www.mjstoybox.biz/articles/id12.html.
First, I want to point out that aside from the sexual aspect, they are already living as Dominant and submissive. He is giving her choices, freedoms, yes, but depending on the submissive's needs and wants that could be found in other D/s relationships. The only thing they are lacking is a formal agreement. And as many of you have commented in your reviews, she isn't ready for anything like that at this point.
So why the collar and what will it mean for their relationship? First, nothing major will change with their dynamics. As I've been doing research for this story, I came across a website talking about the meanings associated with D/s collars. After doing a little more research and talking with an actual submissive about it, I really wanted to share what I found out.
While a collar can be anything from a necklace to a bracelet to just about anything else a submissive is able to wear, the main thing is the meaning. It is the meaning both the Dominant and the submissive place on the collar that is important.
So that brings me to the Protection Collar. This collar is given to a submissive that has usually been in an abusive relationship and needs to recover. A Dom will take her under his wing, so to speak. While she wears this collar of protection she is not allowed to be approached by any other Dom's without the consent of the one whose collar she is wearing. The protecting Dom is responsible for seeing that her needs are met whatever they may be. That does include sexual needs, but it doesn't have to. His goal and responsibility is to help prepare her to re-enter the community and find a healthy D/s relationship for her.
If you want to read the full page with descriptions of all the different types of collars, here is the link http://www.mjstoybox.biz/articles/id12.html.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
FB - Chapter 9 Teaser
She nodded but didn’t speak. I was not going to play this game, so I just waited for her to spit it out. It didn’t take nearly as long as I’d thought it would before I heard her ask, “May I make breakfast this morning for you, Master?”
Shock crossed my face, although with her eyes still on the floor she didn’t see it. But then it also struck me that this was the first real thing she had asked for without prompting. She wanted to serve me. I knew it was her way of again trying to apologize for whatever wrong she thought she did last night to upset me, but this was an improvement over her last attempt at ‘thank you’. “Yes, that sounds lovely.” I was about to walk away again when I saw her lip disappear a second time behind her teeth. “Was there something else?”
“Do you have a waffle iron?”
I glanced up at my cabinets. Esme had been the one to stock my kitchen with what she saw as the essentials. Racking my brain, I tried to recall if a waffle iron had been included. There really was no telling. I hadn’t used half of what she’d installed or shelved. “I don’t know, but you are more than welcome to check. My kitchen is at your disposal.”
“Thank you, Master,” she whispered.
Watching her for only a moment longer to see if there was anything else, I was surprised to see a hint of a smile. She was happy she’d pleased me.
Shock crossed my face, although with her eyes still on the floor she didn’t see it. But then it also struck me that this was the first real thing she had asked for without prompting. She wanted to serve me. I knew it was her way of again trying to apologize for whatever wrong she thought she did last night to upset me, but this was an improvement over her last attempt at ‘thank you’. “Yes, that sounds lovely.” I was about to walk away again when I saw her lip disappear a second time behind her teeth. “Was there something else?”
“Do you have a waffle iron?”
I glanced up at my cabinets. Esme had been the one to stock my kitchen with what she saw as the essentials. Racking my brain, I tried to recall if a waffle iron had been included. There really was no telling. I hadn’t used half of what she’d installed or shelved. “I don’t know, but you are more than welcome to check. My kitchen is at your disposal.”
“Thank you, Master,” she whispered.
Watching her for only a moment longer to see if there was anything else, I was surprised to see a hint of a smile. She was happy she’d pleased me.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
FB - Chapter 8 Teaser
Heading straight for my bathroom, I turned on the cold water and splashed it on my face. Looking up in the mirror, I was pleased to see that the anger burning in my eyes had dimmed. I felt more in control, which was good. The last thing Isabella needed was to fear me even more than she already did.
My hand was reaching for the doorknob when I felt my phone vibrate. Pulling it from my pocket and looking at the caller ID, I knew it was my aunt.
Sighing, I figured I might as well get this over with. “Hello.”
‘Edward,” my aunt’s voice resonated through the phone, “And how is my favorite nephew?”
Releasing the doorknob, I leaned back against the sink. “I’m fine. You?”
“Well…I was doing fine until I heard you have a new girlfriend that I haven’t even heard about.”
Closing my eyes, my left hand came up to pinch the bridge of my nose. Girlfriend. Not exactly.
Carlisle knew of my lifestyle. Esme did not. And even if I wanted her to know, this was not the time to tell her. “I didn’t mean to keep anything from you. It’s just…” What did I say? I had no idea, so I settled on, “new.”
My hand was reaching for the doorknob when I felt my phone vibrate. Pulling it from my pocket and looking at the caller ID, I knew it was my aunt.
Sighing, I figured I might as well get this over with. “Hello.”
‘Edward,” my aunt’s voice resonated through the phone, “And how is my favorite nephew?”
Releasing the doorknob, I leaned back against the sink. “I’m fine. You?”
“Well…I was doing fine until I heard you have a new girlfriend that I haven’t even heard about.”
Closing my eyes, my left hand came up to pinch the bridge of my nose. Girlfriend. Not exactly.
Carlisle knew of my lifestyle. Esme did not. And even if I wanted her to know, this was not the time to tell her. “I didn’t mean to keep anything from you. It’s just…” What did I say? I had no idea, so I settled on, “new.”
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Perspective - Review I had to share
I wanted to share a review I received with you on my latest chapter of Perspective. Actually, it wasn't on the chapter at all. This person has never read, nor reviewed this story before. I'll let you read it, and then explain why I wanted to share.
Look.....OK, please don't take this as a criticsm, ok? I haven't read the story, so I could very easily be isunderstanding something. Or a lot of things, even. So PLEASE don't get mad...it's just that, well...I read the summary of this story, and I'm like, "Wha--?? Nearly 100,000 words and 38 chapters and 400+ reviews for a story dealing with THAT?!?!?" I just don't get it...I mean, I'm not some prude or religious nut or something, I just don't get it! Is sex between B&E really THAT important??? Seriously! And as for wedding nights, what good will it be talking to C&E&J?? They were all cases of vampire sex, not human/vampire sex...
So, like I said, PLEASE don't be mad!! I am NOT putting your story down! I'm sure the story is very well written and all, but *sigh* I just don't get it...sorry, I keep saying that, don't I? Anyway, I am almost afraid to read it, so maybe you could just explain it to me real fast, and let me know what I'm missing? Thanks. And seriously--NOT a criticism!!!
So I didn't want to share this with you to embarrass the person who wrote it, I wanted to let you read it because I felt she brings up something I find so often in the fan fiction I read. Her question is how can you take nearly 100,000 words to explain Edward's preparation for his big wedding night with Bella? Well, if you're reading Perspective then you know the answer to that.
Stephanie spent two books just getting Edward and Bella to the point of him being able to make out with her and NOT want to kill her. She gave us the subtle touches, and the love. Perspective is a reflection and continuation of that only from Edward's point of view. I think too often in fan fiction and even in some novels, authors are in such a hurry to get to the big climax or dramatic ending. To me, it is all about the journey and that is how I write.
Look.....OK, please don't take this as a criticsm, ok? I haven't read the story, so I could very easily be isunderstanding something. Or a lot of things, even. So PLEASE don't get mad...it's just that, well...I read the summary of this story, and I'm like, "Wha--?? Nearly 100,000 words and 38 chapters and 400+ reviews for a story dealing with THAT?!?!?" I just don't get it...I mean, I'm not some prude or religious nut or something, I just don't get it! Is sex between B&E really THAT important??? Seriously! And as for wedding nights, what good will it be talking to C&E&J?? They were all cases of vampire sex, not human/vampire sex...
So, like I said, PLEASE don't be mad!! I am NOT putting your story down! I'm sure the story is very well written and all, but *sigh* I just don't get it...sorry, I keep saying that, don't I? Anyway, I am almost afraid to read it, so maybe you could just explain it to me real fast, and let me know what I'm missing? Thanks. And seriously--NOT a criticism!!!
So I didn't want to share this with you to embarrass the person who wrote it, I wanted to let you read it because I felt she brings up something I find so often in the fan fiction I read. Her question is how can you take nearly 100,000 words to explain Edward's preparation for his big wedding night with Bella? Well, if you're reading Perspective then you know the answer to that.
Stephanie spent two books just getting Edward and Bella to the point of him being able to make out with her and NOT want to kill her. She gave us the subtle touches, and the love. Perspective is a reflection and continuation of that only from Edward's point of view. I think too often in fan fiction and even in some novels, authors are in such a hurry to get to the big climax or dramatic ending. To me, it is all about the journey and that is how I write.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
FB - Chapter 7 Teaser
Two steps inside and I felt Isabella’s muscles stiffen beneath my hand. Looking down, she’d lost all color in her face. Moving to stand in front of her, I tried to get her to look at me, to focus but she wouldn’t. Instead, her arms crossed her body, hugging herself tightly and her breathing was becoming increasingly shallow.
An older couple walked around us with stares of obvious curiosity at the scene. I couldn’t care less. All I knew is that we needed to leave this place. I had no idea what was going on exactly but something changed once we’d entered this building. My only hope was that leaving it would correct the problem.
Putting my arm firmly around her waist, pulling her to my side, I practically carried her back out the door. Looking around, I spotted a bench across the way and headed for it.
Thankfully, it was still early enough in the season that there weren’t crowds of people. That didn’t mean we weren’t attracting attention though. Several people, including one zoo worker, paused in their progress to assess the situation. I couldn’t spare them much attention, however.
As we both sat down on the bench, she continued to curl into herself and was now engaged in a sort of rocking motion. She was mumbling, but I couldn’t make out the words.
Wherever she was, it wasn’t here. I needed her to calm down and focus.
An older couple walked around us with stares of obvious curiosity at the scene. I couldn’t care less. All I knew is that we needed to leave this place. I had no idea what was going on exactly but something changed once we’d entered this building. My only hope was that leaving it would correct the problem.
Putting my arm firmly around her waist, pulling her to my side, I practically carried her back out the door. Looking around, I spotted a bench across the way and headed for it.
Thankfully, it was still early enough in the season that there weren’t crowds of people. That didn’t mean we weren’t attracting attention though. Several people, including one zoo worker, paused in their progress to assess the situation. I couldn’t spare them much attention, however.
As we both sat down on the bench, she continued to curl into herself and was now engaged in a sort of rocking motion. She was mumbling, but I couldn’t make out the words.
Wherever she was, it wasn’t here. I needed her to calm down and focus.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Perspective - Chapter 38 Teaser
“You both are very young. Is there a reason why you are choosing now to get married?”
Of course we could not share the real reason, which involved Bella’s obsession with getting older. Instead, I told him the same thing I’d told Charlie when we’d announced our impending marriage. “We are both going away to Dartmouth this fall, and we would like to do that the right way.”
I was hoping that would be the end of it, but by his thoughts I could tell he was not going to let it go so easily. “So there is nothing other than college that is causing you to marry now rather than in a few years?”
Bella moaned, which caused both of us to switch our attention to her. I, of course, knew the cause of her reaction. It was one I’d felt every time I’d hear the thoughts or whispers around us whenever we were seen out in Forks together. Only years of masking my thoughts and emotions kept me from outwardly expressing my frustration again and again. My love didn’t have all those years of experience in hiding behind a mask, and right at this moment her frustration showed plain on her face.
“I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable, Bella,” Reverend Webber said, and I could tell he was sincere. “but I do have to ask.”
She let out a heavy sigh. “No. I’m not pregnant.”
Of course we could not share the real reason, which involved Bella’s obsession with getting older. Instead, I told him the same thing I’d told Charlie when we’d announced our impending marriage. “We are both going away to Dartmouth this fall, and we would like to do that the right way.”
I was hoping that would be the end of it, but by his thoughts I could tell he was not going to let it go so easily. “So there is nothing other than college that is causing you to marry now rather than in a few years?”
Bella moaned, which caused both of us to switch our attention to her. I, of course, knew the cause of her reaction. It was one I’d felt every time I’d hear the thoughts or whispers around us whenever we were seen out in Forks together. Only years of masking my thoughts and emotions kept me from outwardly expressing my frustration again and again. My love didn’t have all those years of experience in hiding behind a mask, and right at this moment her frustration showed plain on her face.
“I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable, Bella,” Reverend Webber said, and I could tell he was sincere. “but I do have to ask.”
She let out a heavy sigh. “No. I’m not pregnant.”
Saturday, October 24, 2009
FB - Chapter 6 Teaser
Before heading out, we both went into our rooms and changed into jeans. I grabbed my favorite pair, the ones I wore to family barbeques over at Carlisle and Esme’s house. There was an excitement humming through me as I got dressed for the second time today.
Walking back out into my living room, I waited for her. Isabella stepped out of her room wearing a fitted pair of jeans and a dark blue long sleeved shirt. Her hair was pulled back in a long flowing ponytail, pulling it just slightly off her neck but still allowing it to tumble down across her shoulders. A brief flash from this morning crossed my mind of long flowing brown hair brushing against my thighs and I had to turn away abruptly before I did something stupid.
Taking a deep breath to calm myself, “Are you ready?”
“Yes, master,” she said to my back.
Opening the door, I motioned for her to go first. She did, all the while keeping her eyes downward.
Our drive was a silent one. She kept her eyes down for the most part but occasionally I would catch her looking out the passenger window. Then it was like she’d catch herself and look back down at her lap. “You may look out the window if you’d like,” I said giving her a smile she didn’t see.
She did hear me though and brought her head up to look out the window once again. We were getting close to our destination and I wondered what she’d think of my choice of activities.
I knew exactly when she figured out where we were going. Her eyes opened wide and she shifted in her seat. “Is there something wrong?” I asked.
Walking back out into my living room, I waited for her. Isabella stepped out of her room wearing a fitted pair of jeans and a dark blue long sleeved shirt. Her hair was pulled back in a long flowing ponytail, pulling it just slightly off her neck but still allowing it to tumble down across her shoulders. A brief flash from this morning crossed my mind of long flowing brown hair brushing against my thighs and I had to turn away abruptly before I did something stupid.
Taking a deep breath to calm myself, “Are you ready?”
“Yes, master,” she said to my back.
Opening the door, I motioned for her to go first. She did, all the while keeping her eyes downward.
Our drive was a silent one. She kept her eyes down for the most part but occasionally I would catch her looking out the passenger window. Then it was like she’d catch herself and look back down at her lap. “You may look out the window if you’d like,” I said giving her a smile she didn’t see.
She did hear me though and brought her head up to look out the window once again. We were getting close to our destination and I wondered what she’d think of my choice of activities.
I knew exactly when she figured out where we were going. Her eyes opened wide and she shifted in her seat. “Is there something wrong?” I asked.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
FB - Time Line/Ages
I thought it might be time to put the timeline we're working with for Finding Bella into black and white. It was mentioned in chapter four that Bella is 18 and was purchased eight months ago shortly before her birthday when she was still 17. For those of you who don't want to do the math, that puts us in the month of April .
I've also had several people ask me how old Edward is. From the story summary, we learn that Edward has been a Dom for over five years, since he was a sophomore in college. That means he became a Dom when he was 19. He 24 and will be 25 in June.
While we are talking about ages, Alice is two years younger than Edward so 22. We will be meeting Jasper later, chapter 10 I believe, and he is the same age as Edward.
I've also had several people ask me how old Edward is. From the story summary, we learn that Edward has been a Dom for over five years, since he was a sophomore in college. That means he became a Dom when he was 19. He 24 and will be 25 in June.
While we are talking about ages, Alice is two years younger than Edward so 22. We will be meeting Jasper later, chapter 10 I believe, and he is the same age as Edward.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
FB - Chapter 5 Teaser
I thought it would make him happy. Why hadn’t it made him happy? It didn’t matter. Look what I’d done!
What would he do? He was obviously not happy with me. How would he punish me?
No, that didn’t matter either. I’d messed up. Brought this on myself. Whatever it was I’d deal with it, try not to cry no matter how painful.
But what if he wanted me to cry? Aro hated crying. He’d always add ten lashes if I cried during my punishments. Edward wasn’t like Aro though. What would he want? Why did this have to be so confusing?!
I felt the tears streaking down my cheeks and tried to wipe them quickly away when I heard the door opening. He didn’t come in though, just stood there looking at me. “Get dressed and come to the living room, please.”
And then he was gone. I was more confused than ever. He wanted me to get dressed and come to the living room?
Then I got it. He was getting rid of me!
What would he do? He was obviously not happy with me. How would he punish me?
No, that didn’t matter either. I’d messed up. Brought this on myself. Whatever it was I’d deal with it, try not to cry no matter how painful.
But what if he wanted me to cry? Aro hated crying. He’d always add ten lashes if I cried during my punishments. Edward wasn’t like Aro though. What would he want? Why did this have to be so confusing?!
I felt the tears streaking down my cheeks and tried to wipe them quickly away when I heard the door opening. He didn’t come in though, just stood there looking at me. “Get dressed and come to the living room, please.”
And then he was gone. I was more confused than ever. He wanted me to get dressed and come to the living room?
Then I got it. He was getting rid of me!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
FB - Edward
I've had a couple of people ask me why Edward didn't call the police when he rescued Isabella. Yes, for most people that would be the logical choice of action. So what is Edward thinking? Why didn't he? There are two main reasons why he didn't call the police after he rescued Isabella.
First, he is a very private man, but he is a very public figure. Given his lifestyle choice and his position in Seattle society, he's learned that the less people know the better. And with Isabella, this is even more important. He doesn't know exactly what he's dealing with, why she was where she was, nor how she got there. Edward put his proverbial neck on the line by going to Aro and buying her. He doesn't want that kind of information to become public knowledge.
His second reason for not involving the authorities, is because he doesn't think that would be a good choice for her right now. Isabella is very submissive right now. If she was put into a high pressure situation, she may lose it entirely. And what would happen if she was pushed into pressing charges? One look at Aro, or any other dominating figure, especially male, and she'd back down if not collapses into herself.
I've also had several comments on Edward's thoughts about her becoming his submissive. Again, there are a couple of reasons for that, but they are pretty simple.
1) She is already trained. As sick as that thought might be, Aro did train her to be submissive. It is only her fear that ever makes her hesitate. Take that fear away, and Edward knows she'd be perfect.
2) He's attracted to her. We all know Edward thinks Bella is the most beautiful woman in the world. That doesn't change here. He wants her, plain and simple, but he wants her to want him as well.
First, he is a very private man, but he is a very public figure. Given his lifestyle choice and his position in Seattle society, he's learned that the less people know the better. And with Isabella, this is even more important. He doesn't know exactly what he's dealing with, why she was where she was, nor how she got there. Edward put his proverbial neck on the line by going to Aro and buying her. He doesn't want that kind of information to become public knowledge.
His second reason for not involving the authorities, is because he doesn't think that would be a good choice for her right now. Isabella is very submissive right now. If she was put into a high pressure situation, she may lose it entirely. And what would happen if she was pushed into pressing charges? One look at Aro, or any other dominating figure, especially male, and she'd back down if not collapses into herself.
I've also had several comments on Edward's thoughts about her becoming his submissive. Again, there are a couple of reasons for that, but they are pretty simple.
1) She is already trained. As sick as that thought might be, Aro did train her to be submissive. It is only her fear that ever makes her hesitate. Take that fear away, and Edward knows she'd be perfect.
2) He's attracted to her. We all know Edward thinks Bella is the most beautiful woman in the world. That doesn't change here. He wants her, plain and simple, but he wants her to want him as well.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
FB Chapter 4 Teaser
First before I give you the teaser, I changed the pictures from an earlier post of Edward's penthouse. The ones I had were okay, but weren't exactly what I was looking for. I found something better I liked so I changed them. As we move through the house, you'll get more photos. :)
Now on with the teasaer....
I led her over to the dining room table and motioned for her to sit. She complied without hesitation.
Setting my briefcase down on the table I opened it and extracted three separate pieces of paper, handing them to her along with a pen. “I need you to fill these out. Be as honest as you can.” She nodded and I left her to fill out the forms Carlisle had e-mailed me while I went to make us dinner.
The forms were nothing special. They were the standard new patient forms one had to fill out anytime changing doctors asking for name, age, family medical history, etc. Although to be honest, I was just as curious about some of that information myself. She looked young. Very young. If I had to guess, I’d say she was no more than 19 or 20. I’d had a brief fear as I’d contemplated this on the way home that I’d ‘purchased’ a minor, but I pushed it aside. If that’s what she was, then I’d turn her over to social services saying I’d found her wondering the streets. They’d never know unless Isabella told them and in her current condition, I didn’t find that likely.
Tonight dinner was simple, spaghetti. We didn’t really have time for anything fancy since we had to be at Carlisle’s office by seven.
When I brought the plates over to the table, she was on the last page. Isabella glanced at the plate but didn’t stop writing until I took the papers and pen out of her hand. “Eat first. You can finish filling these out after you’re done.”
Now on with the teasaer....
I led her over to the dining room table and motioned for her to sit. She complied without hesitation.
Setting my briefcase down on the table I opened it and extracted three separate pieces of paper, handing them to her along with a pen. “I need you to fill these out. Be as honest as you can.” She nodded and I left her to fill out the forms Carlisle had e-mailed me while I went to make us dinner.
The forms were nothing special. They were the standard new patient forms one had to fill out anytime changing doctors asking for name, age, family medical history, etc. Although to be honest, I was just as curious about some of that information myself. She looked young. Very young. If I had to guess, I’d say she was no more than 19 or 20. I’d had a brief fear as I’d contemplated this on the way home that I’d ‘purchased’ a minor, but I pushed it aside. If that’s what she was, then I’d turn her over to social services saying I’d found her wondering the streets. They’d never know unless Isabella told them and in her current condition, I didn’t find that likely.
Tonight dinner was simple, spaghetti. We didn’t really have time for anything fancy since we had to be at Carlisle’s office by seven.
When I brought the plates over to the table, she was on the last page. Isabella glanced at the plate but didn’t stop writing until I took the papers and pen out of her hand. “Eat first. You can finish filling these out after you’re done.”
Friday, October 9, 2009
Teaser - Perspective Chapter 37
Alice said you were ready to go. Of course. Alice. I nodded, and we took off through the trees at a steady pace.
We were earlier than usual getting to what had become our spot in the woods. The moon was high in the sky and the opening in the trees brought the light streaming down to the forest floor. It painted a relaxing picture, but I was anything but. I knew what I wanted out of tonight. The thought of asking Jasper for it, however, was not as easy as I would have liked. Of course, he picked up on my anxiety. What is it?
I ran a frustrated hand through my hair and tried to calm myself. This was the last thing he needed to deal with tonight.
When I didn’t answer, he asked out loud. “Why are you nervous?”
Leaning back against the nearest tree, I took a deep breath, and faced my brother. “Logically, I know that asking you is no different than what we’ve been doing, but realistically, I know it is.”
Jasper’s curiosity was peaked by my statement. He was also very firm in his belief that there was nothing he wouldn’t do to help me. “You may change your mind.”
“I doubt it,” he answered.
“Okay,” I said, releasing a breath. “I am a little concerned that I have never…”
We were earlier than usual getting to what had become our spot in the woods. The moon was high in the sky and the opening in the trees brought the light streaming down to the forest floor. It painted a relaxing picture, but I was anything but. I knew what I wanted out of tonight. The thought of asking Jasper for it, however, was not as easy as I would have liked. Of course, he picked up on my anxiety. What is it?
I ran a frustrated hand through my hair and tried to calm myself. This was the last thing he needed to deal with tonight.
When I didn’t answer, he asked out loud. “Why are you nervous?”
Leaning back against the nearest tree, I took a deep breath, and faced my brother. “Logically, I know that asking you is no different than what we’ve been doing, but realistically, I know it is.”
Jasper’s curiosity was peaked by my statement. He was also very firm in his belief that there was nothing he wouldn’t do to help me. “You may change your mind.”
“I doubt it,” he answered.
“Okay,” I said, releasing a breath. “I am a little concerned that I have never…”
Thursday, October 8, 2009
The Body Shop
I knew writing about human trafficing would be controversal and I wasn't wrong. I've gotten reviews that have ranged from outright praise to concern for where my story is going. But there was something brought up by one reviewer that I wanted to share.
Some of you may have heard of a store called The Body Shop. They not only sell natural products, but also support a lot of worth while causes specificly those important to women.
One of those causes includes stopping sex trafficing of children and young people. Sex trafficing is a very real problem, even here in the US. If you'd like to read more, visit http://www.thebodyshop-usa.com/beauty/defend-human-rights.
Heavy topic today, but one I felt the need to share with you.
Some of you may have heard of a store called The Body Shop. They not only sell natural products, but also support a lot of worth while causes specificly those important to women.
One of those causes includes stopping sex trafficing of children and young people. Sex trafficing is a very real problem, even here in the US. If you'd like to read more, visit http://www.thebodyshop-usa.com/beauty/defend-human-rights.
Heavy topic today, but one I felt the need to share with you.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
FB Chapter 3
I am floored by the response this story has gotten so far. Chapter 3 just posted this morning and I was notified that it has been nominated for a Razzle Dazzle Award for Best Romance! The confidence my readers have in me is amazing and I thank you. http://razzledazzleawards.webs.com/. Voting is from October 11th at 10:00am to Oct. 29th at 10:00am.
This chapter differed from the previous two in that readers got to hear from both Edward and Bella. Yes, our girl is VERY messed up. Her way of thinking is off track and it is going to take a lot of work to get her back to where she needs to be.
I had a few reviewers ask about Alice. She is going to very important in Bella's recovery. I mean sometimes you just need a girlfriend, right?
Monday, October 5, 2009
Stories
Moving Forward - This is an alternate ending Prison Break fic. I like so many others was not happy at the end of Season 3 when by all accounts Sara Tancredi was dead. I was and still am a huge Michael and Sara shipper and wanted to give them a happy ending. In this story, I kept all the elements of Season 3, with the exception of the killing of our beloved Sara.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4831308/1/Perspective
Finding Bella - This story has been a leap of faith for me. It deals with very dark themes and I was very nervous about posting it. Only after several friends encouraged me did a press that button on the keyboard with butterflies in my stomach.
Finding Bella is an alternate universe - human story taken from many different avenues of reading and the news. A college friend of Edward's asks him out to lunch to tell him about a girl he believes is being held against her will as a submissive sex slave. Edward is a Dominant, and although he's had submissives before, nothing could have prepared him for a woman whose had all her free will taken away from her. This story is about healing and finding love in a most unlikely place.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5396401/1/Finding_Bella
The exchange was made, but not with L.J. and Sofia, but with L.J. and Sara. Moving Forward picks up two years after Season 3 ends with Michael and Sara getting ready to go on their first real date. Things were not all rosy for our couple once leaving Panama. Michael decided to turn himself in, and ended up spending 18 months back in Fox River under close surveillance. He's out now, and trying to make a life for himself and Sara.
Perspective - Twilight has such a huge fan base and it spans all ages. After reading the books, like so many other fans, I wanted more. Finding fan fiction feed that need. At first, I gravitated toward the cannon stories, the ones that were 'missing moments' as they were. As with so many fans I've ran into, many of us wanted more when it came to Bella and Edward 'practicing' for their honeymoon and then of course the actual event. And after reading a handful of stories, I couldn't find that one I was looking for. The one where Bella and Edward didn't end up crossing boundaries before they were married.
The first chapter of Perspective is Edward talking to Carlisle, telling him about he and Bella's compromise. After that, the story jumps ahead two weeks and goes from there. It is still a work in progress, but we are nearing the end. Perspective is told solely from Edward's POV and shows the delicate balance he has to endure between love and desire.
Finding Bella - This story has been a leap of faith for me. It deals with very dark themes and I was very nervous about posting it. Only after several friends encouraged me did a press that button on the keyboard with butterflies in my stomach.
Finding Bella is an alternate universe - human story taken from many different avenues of reading and the news. A college friend of Edward's asks him out to lunch to tell him about a girl he believes is being held against her will as a submissive sex slave. Edward is a Dominant, and although he's had submissives before, nothing could have prepared him for a woman whose had all her free will taken away from her. This story is about healing and finding love in a most unlikely place.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5396401/1/Finding_Bella
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Introduction
Welcome to my blog!
First I thought I'd tell you a little about myself and how I got started writing. I'm 32 years old and live in Ohio with my husband and four cats. In May of 2008 I started my first story for the TV show Prison Break. Being a huge Michael and Sara shipper, I was unhappy with the outcome of season three. And after reading several stories, I didn't find one I was overly pleased with. So, as so often happens I decided to try and write my own.
My first story, Moving Forward, started soon after. I learned a lot from writing this story, including the fact that I'm long winded. Moving Forward ended up being sixty five chapters and 120,000 words. No one was more surprised than me. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4831580/1/Moving_Forward
In the fall of 2008, a fellow PB fan brought Twilight to my attention and was adamant that I must read it. Needless to say I did and was hooked. By the new year, I was starting my first Twilight story, Perspective. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4831308/1/Perspective
I've found writing to be a wonderful creative outlet for me and I love sharing my stories with others. I'm also in the process of editing my first novel, and I'm hoping to start sending letters to agents before the end of the year.
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